Transition

Greetings from California.

Tonight I won't be posting about Europe or my pregnancy, Shocking...

We've been here off and on about a month now

and at this point I always get verrrry overwhelmed. 

The excitement from "the move" wears off and reality sets in. 

I remember doing this same thing when we got to Oklahoma. 

After weeks of unpacking and settling in you look around and think, 

wow... I'm really here to stay. 

And as much as I love my husband, I start to miss my family and friends.

Meeting people in a new place isn't the easiest. It's the scariest part. 

It's stupid really, because I distinctly remember dreaming of this time, 

my family and I in our home in California... 

but now that it's here all I can think about is the money Air Force owes us 

and the painting that needs to be done before I can start on the nursery

and the fact that we have one car and big utility payments ahead and 

 then the dull aching in my body reminds me that 

our baby could be here in 2.5 MONTHS. 

By now my anxiety capacity has reached it's breaking point. 

The grown up me needs to learn how to deal with this time responsibly 

instead of laying on the couch with ten pillows

watching old Grey's episodes over, and over, and over... 

So this is me, trying to deal with it through writing. 

Powers that be, please calm my nervous heart and give me the mental

stability to enjoy this time of transition. 

There's so many exciting things ahead and although it doesn't feel like it

I will be ready.

Right?

Lets hope so.